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the river
toward and against
i fall from my head
leak out my eyes
unzip my thighs
unfurl my heart
the ocean
abysmal and heartening
I let myself be held
hover my weight
take my breath
sink my teeth
the rain
a blind rhythm
new and old
cleanse my soul
wet my fear
quench my life

let me be real

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we press for the water, press for the river, press for the rain
we press for the water, press for the river, press for the pain
-Chelsea Wolf

whirlpool

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Recently I painted this, which i hope will be used as backdrop to a photoshoot. 
I’m not really sure about if i should be the model in it, because at the moment 
modelling doesn’t sit right with me and my morals. There are plenty of amazing
people in the industry that i know, so i don’t want them to take any offence.
It’s just hard for me to not put enormous pressure on myself to be absolutely 
perfect, which i know is an unreachable goal. I think i’ll stick to art, because 
although it may come with its many challenges and frustrations, it still rewards me
in ways that exist much deeper than the exterior, fleshy, physical world.
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Grey park looks the same
And all the days are pale
I never thought it would rain this way
I should be knowing that, it  used to be me

Lets stay here for a while
Is something going to happen today?
– Katatonia

I’ve been using my tears as jewellery lately, and i plan to give one to the people i care about the most after
i have finished making the Rain Room. There is something so lovely about them, the weight, the density. They 
sit heavy on my chest.

 

Be the Tide

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God of fire bring your light
forger of sun help me now
guardian of the shore will sleep in your warmth
lull the folk of cold water
banish the serpents of the dark
to the river let me go and fetch my sun away
-Amorphis

 

Have you ever felt connected to the bigger picture when 
surrounded by water? Even being near a lake or a river
or the sea seems to invoke a spiritual experince which calms
and soothes the body, mind and soul. 

The Spiritual Significance Of Water

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Nature, nurture heaven and home
Sum of all, and by them, driven
To conquer every mountain shown
But I’ve never crossed the river
It’ll take a lot more than words and guns
A whole lot more than riches and muscle
The hands of the many must join as one
And together we’ll cross the river
– Puscifer

In my eyes, in my mind, in my heart,
i can feel the rivers of the world
growing and flowing, sometimes slowing
following the curve of our beautiful circle, a perfect circle.
Just as the water travels in rivers and streams,
delivering life, carrying death, turning time, moving life,
so does the blood that runs through our veins
In the same pattern, in the same way.